Autumn is my Season

Its been a hell of  ride this last 6 months. Depression hit me with a sledge hammer. I managed to hold it together in the main but put up quite the fight and creativity was the looser in order for everything else to survive.  I have been to see my awesome Doc and my awesome counselor and they have helped me get a grip, the people I work with and for are amazing and the support I have had from them is incredible.
It just takes time and the time seems to be now.  I'm back and in the mood. Well almost. My life problems cant seem to move *shrug*  so Im half back

 I'm not a writer but putting it down will help me see pattern and behaviours even if I can only write when Im on a level.

I have PTSD involving the usual , with  dysthymia / persistant depressive disorder. I manage to live with this quite well I find. I've had a lot of practice at keeping it all together and keeping on, major depressive, yeah  but the tiredness and the physical pain  are killer emotionally, physically and mentally and they piss people off  close to me but I cant seem to do anything about it no matter how hard I try. It just causes a world of hurt for all concerned.  I try so hard not to lash out , be aggressive or angry but holding it all in causes  snide remarks to leave my mouth unbidden. Nothing but hurt.

This too Shall Pass.